To my Big Sister

It's 8:09 PM and I just woke up from a 9-hour "nap". It looks like everyone went somewhere because the house is quiet and because yeah, it's Sunday night! I'm such a bummer.

Anyway, I was just browsing through my twitter timeline and saw Bianca Gonzalez tweet. Of course I clicked on her profile. I haven't browsed through her blogger site for the longest time so when I did, it was like blogpost overload! Since college, I've followed her blog. Blogger was not really that big here then and so I thought it was like a special treat. Not all celebrities write down a piece of their life, their experiences, so I was eager to read about what she had to say. As I said, I was in college by this time and her initial blogs were about her college life in Ateneo. Ateneo de Manila University is a very elite university here in the Philippines. If you have money AND brains, enroll here. I, on the other hand, studied at a state university, so I was curious how a well-off college student goes through, well, college.

Even after graduation, I make it a point to read her blogs because it became a habit. I may not read it religiously, but when I do, I feel like I'm talking to a friend I haven't talked to for a long time. Her blog was actually one of the reasons why I maintained one myself. Shameless plugging. Come to think of it, mine's four years old now!

Thank God for blogger, I gained another big sister. Her posts were like heads up! for me, words of wisdom from a big sister. And her latest post was no different.

Halfway through, I was crying. I was brought up with people asking me "what's your plan?" and I have never been someone who wants to plan things. Being asked that question in the dinner table actually made me (and still does) uncomfortable and pressured. My dad always said that he had a planned out his life even when he was still in high school. They were really poor so doing that was not really a bad idea. He had dreams.

Sometimes, I ask myself if I have dreams. Do I really want to do something with my life? Where do I want to be five maybe ten years from now? Well, thank God I still have answers to these questions but then I ask myself : "Then why don't you have plans?"

Thank you, Bianca, for reminding me that not all things should be planned. Yes, I do plan but not really the kind that would tell me where I would be and what I would be doing five to ten years from now. While I know that planning will make me focused and hold some kind of security, I'm a firm believer of spontaneity and I always love how life would surprise me with unexpected twist and turns.

I am so excited and I dream for the day when I'd post a blog entitled The Accidental Everything as well.

Your virtual little sister,
Nika :)